Learning to Walk Again

 
Well hello again blog.  How have you been?  It seems like it has been months since I have sat down in-front of my computer to write you a story… Oh wait it actually has been!There is a a reason for it, but I can’t share all the details.  2016 has hit me like a freight train, like a really big freight train, the kind that has like six locomotives at the front followed by like 1,000 big heavy box cars… That kind of freight train.  There have been a series of really unpleasant life events that have all occurred in rapid succession which have left me feeling rather overwhelmed.  It became way too much to deal with all at once.  So I have slammed on the brakes and I am slowly getting through it all day-by-day.

The piece that I am ready to get through today is blogging.  I haven’t made a vlog on YouTube in quite some time either.  I find that it takes far more effort to record a video clip, edit the clips together, and publish a video; but this post isn’t about vlogging.  My small step today has been to sit down and write which feels really, really good.

I am so thankful for all the amazing friends that I have in my life that have been here to support me through this rough patch.  Sometimes just having a friend remind me to relax and that tomorrow is a brand new day was all I needed.

Aside from all the events that have happened so far this year, another struggle I have is remembering to write my ideas and stories down.  As you know, I am a bus driver which gives me a lot of time to think.  I get the opportunity to travel around Winnipeg and see a lot of things that would make for killer blog material, but I can’t just pull over and start writing on the side of the road.  Could you imagine…

“Ummmm… Driver… Why are we stopped?”

“Hold on… I’m blogging…”

It is even a challenge to note down the ideas on a piece of paper while I’m at work since I am required to focus on safely maneuvering my gigantic metal bus down the extremely narrow streets while avoiding the limitless numbers of hazards.  By the time I get to the next place to stop and would have had the chance to note down my blog idea, I have had my attention pulled away to avoid 160 pot holes, 239 cars, and answer 172 questions about how to get downtown.

Don’t interpret that as me complaining, safe driving and customer service are my priorities while I am at work.  Maybe I am just getting old and need to play more brain games to improve my memory skills in order to remember what it was I wanted to write about again today.

What was I talking about again?  Oh ya… Blogging…

I am really thankful that life has appeared to take a break from building hurdles in my path.  It has certainly provided me an opportunity to do a lot of reflection on what my goals and priorities are going to be for 2016.  That being said, I am really excited to be writing again today and I hope that this inspiration will continue and I can continue to create new stories and adventures to share with you.

I hope you are all having an amazing Wednesday!  Until next time…

-M

Running on Empty

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I wish that I were a robot. There I said it! I have been so incredibly tired lately and feeling overwhelmed by the growing list of tasks that I am trying to accomplish. I wish there were a way that I could just plug myself into the wall and recharge my batteries in 10 minutes and get back to accomplishing my list of chores.

Unfortunately, I, like most of you, am burdened with the need for sleep. My current shift at work isn’t very accommodating to this at the moment, but thankfully that ends as of Saturday and my days shouldn’t be 14 hours 5 days a week anymore.

I am struggling to stay motivated lately in life though. I have so many things that I want to do like organizing my photo collection on iPhoto which is comprised of over 6,000 photos and growing as I continue to play with my camera. I am also trying to finish the basement in our house, but have no desire to work on it without help because it is cold and dirty down there. I am trying to organize my contact list which is currently spread out over five different email providers and I have no idea about which phone numbers are current and which no longer work. I could continue to burden you with all the tasks on my long long long list, but I think you get the idea.

As a result of having so many projects on the go, I am consistently disappointing myself in not being able to accomplish any of them because my attention is going in way too many directions. I know I’m not the first person to be overwhelmed by life, nor will I be the last. However, I am struggling to keep my head above the water and roll out of bed to complete anything.

Which brings me back full circle to wishing that I were a robot because, on that note, I think I need a nap!