Work days are the hardest days to blog. I feel like nothing happens that is worth blogging about. Someone yelled at me within the first 5 minutes of my shift today though, and I dragged the frustration of that around the city with me. It made for a super long day. Then I came home and had dinner and got ready for bed. I did however have a really important moment of self-discovery while recording today’s vlog.
I really wish that I was able to enjoy days off, but it always seems like there are so many tasks around the house that I need to get through. Today was no exception. I am suffering the consequences of having moved everything into the dining room and trying to get everything reorganized. My evening was wonderful as I had the opportunity to attend RuPaul’s Battle of the season with Mike T and then headed over to Club 200 for a drink afterwards. There was an interesting emotional moment that happened though when I realized that I was in a gay bar which I have always felt was my safe space.
What a grey rainy day off today has been. I have been pretending to be an adult and getting caught up on all my chores around the house. I decided that it was time to take a break and sit down infant of my computer to write a blog post. I have been reflecting quite heavily about my previous post regarding the renewal of my blog site. It has been a challenging decision and I certainly am no where near coming to a conclusion about what it is that I am going to do with my blog.
Today I have actually sat down at the computer as opposed to writing on my cell phone which has been the traditional location for most of the blogs that I have written. Some of the things that I prefer about sitting down at the computer is that I can type on a traditional keyboard which allows me to type much faster. It allows me to write almost as fast as I can think as compared to the tiny keyboard on my cell phone. The downside to this is that my laptop is much less portable and I am unable to write a certain kind of blog post that can only be written out and about to share the emotion and experience I am feeling at the exact moment that I chose to blog. However, going forward I would certainly like to spend a bit more time writing at my desk rather than always blogging from a mobile platform.
I have been off work for the last two days following a seven day stretch of days worked in a row. It has been really nice having two full days to enjoy my life and refocusing myself on my goals and priorities post volunteering for Reel Pride 2015. I have organized the papers on about half of my desk (because I keep everything in a well organized and catalogued manner so that I can actually find things that I am looking for in the future and the mess that has been my desk for the past two months has been driving me absolutely insane). I have also been catching up on three weeks of untouched dirty laundry which is essentially done with the exception of a few items that need to be folded and put away because matching socks is absolutely the worst chore in the world.
I am looking forward to finishing all my chores today so that I will have a clean and well organized workspace to refocus myself towards the pursuit of my goals and dreams as we charge rapidly towards 2016. I am pretty sure that I am going to renew my blog as well as to continue to grow my youtube channel, but I want to make sure that it feels right before I commit to another year of my site as there are still a few days left to make the official decision.
I also want to quickly say thank you to everyone that has been a part of the making of the success of both my blog and vlog. This past summer my blog passed 5,000 views and my youtube channel is about to cross the same threshold. It is an indescribable feeling knowing that so many people have taken time from their life to read or watch the content that I have created and I am incredibly thankful for the opportunity to share my views and experiences of the world with you, so thank you. Below is today’s vlog as well for you that are interested in checking out my youtube channel.
Have a super day and I’ll talk to you tomorrow!
It has been two years since I first started blogging. The renewal notice for my website has once again arrived via email. The predicament that I am faced with is whether or not to renew.
As you all know, I have been incredibly unfaithful to vlogging and blogging over the past year. Part of that had been to life circumstances, but most of it has been due to a lack of confidence in my creativity. That confidence is slowly coming back, but I am still very shaky about actually sharing the stories I have made.
I have been finding more success with vlogging and have been posting videos to my YouTube channel more frequently than I have been sharing written stories. Part of the success with that is recording a 30 second video clip only takes a 30 second commitment from my day. However, making the time to write is a much more demanding task as it has taken me 5 minutes to get this far in this post, although is has probably only taken you about 30 seconds to read.
I have also recently changed my focus away from trying to create the type of stories I think people want to read and have turned it more onto sharing the types of stories I want to share. I have been enjoying creating and sharing my work with you all much more since I adjusted my priority.
I have one more week to decide what the future of supermattymatt.com is, but I’m not sure if this will be the end of my story telling as you know it. I am going to be contemplating this decision very throughly over the next few days. Stay tuned.
Good Morning Friends,
I have talked a lot lately about how much time I have been committing to Reel Pride. It has been an incredible festival and I so rewarding to experience being in the theatre with a group of people and sharing in the experience of watching these films. However, today marks the final day of the festival.
On Wednesday, I had the pleasure of being a part of the Short Film Selection Committee for the 12th Annual Canadian GLBTTQ* Short Film Competition. We had a record number of submissions which we were able to narrow down to a program of 17 different films. In the process of curating this program, building the program and testing the final projection copies of the disks to make sure the program was flawless I have seen the selected films many many times. I think the most fascinating aspect to watching the final program with an audience was how different the experience was. The reaction from the audience was incredible and made all the hard work that I have committed to the project totally worth the time and effort.
As a part of the Short Film Competition, two film makers were able to join Reel Pride this year from Vancouver. I had the pleasure of hosting David C. Jones and another lady graciously hosted Paula Stromberg. It was fun to be a tourist in my own city once again. I had the opportunity to go to the Winnipeg Art Gallery and the Canadian Museum of Human Rights. I have been so busy lately that I lost focus of my priorities (including blogging). Spending time with them certainly helped to refocus me on what is important to me as well as to inspire me to challenge myself both professionally and personally. I am really looking forward to building off the momentum that these two incredible people that I now have the pleasure of calling my friends have provided me.
Yesterday, I said goodbye to David at the airport and am back at the Gas Station Arts Centre enjoying the full day of programming which Reel Pride has provided. We have three films today as well as two other events taking place. Industry day was a wonderful experience to have a personal discussion with several people that have been successful in the film industry. I feel truly lucky to be in the position that I am and have the opportunity to learn the lessons that Reel Pride has been able to teach me and to make the amazing personal connections with the people that I have through my position on the board.
As I mentioned, today will be the closing day of the 27th Annual Reel Pride Film Festival. We are closing the festival with the film S&M Sally which has been given a PG rating. I am really looking forward to putting my feet up and enjoying this film from beginning to end without any interruptions (I have booked this film off of my volunteer shifts). Monday will be spent relaxing and recovering from my last 17 days of vacation from bus driving all of which have been donated to Reel Pride to contribute to the success of this amazing 30th festival.
With that I am going to wrap up by thanking all the close friends and family I have in my life for their patience with me for the lack of communication that I have had over the past few weeks leading up to the festival. I am looking forward to reconnecting with all of you now that my responsibilities are coming to an end. I also have to thank the friends that have provided me the encouragement to come back to blogging after being discouraged so many times by negative feedback.
Have an amazing day,
Good Morning Friends,
Did I miss September? I only just changed my calendar from August to September last week (yeah, I missed the boat on that one a little bit). I totally didn’t realize it was October 1 today until the first passenger showed me their brand new shiny monthly bus pass. I almost corrected them before I realized that we are beginning another new month.
Yesterday, I had the opportunity to watch the first film of the 2015 Reel Pride Pre-Festival Program at the University of Manitoba. The film was called A Gay Girl In Damasus: The Amina Profile. It was an extremely interesting film portraying the online lesbian relationship between a woman in Montreal, Canada and a woman, Amina, who claimed to be from Damasus, Syria. Their relationship helped to fuel Amina’s blog as she shared stories about what it was like to be a lesbian in Syria during the government crackdowns. The story takes a strange twist when Amina is suspected of having been detained by Syria forces, but no one can find any record of her arrests.
I’m not going to tell you anything more because the film is an absolute must see. The film was followed by a discussion led by Drs. Janice Dodds and Liz Millward. It was very interesting listening to all the different perspectives and interpretations of the film. I am so glad that I had the opportunity to participate in this event and it helped to remind me why I’m a part of Reel Pride’s board of directors.
I just got home from work and finished setting up my new bed frame that Shannon, my roommate, rescued from her brother’s house that he was planning on throwing away. I am so happy with it and so thankful that Shannon is such an amazing friend!
I have to get ready to get back to work shortly for my second piece of work. I am really looking forward to seeing what October has in store. I also can’t wait for my Mom to finally start planning Thanksgiving Dinner because I am really looking forward to stuffing my face with her yummy home cooked food.
On that note, I’m going to find breakfast. Have an awesome Thursday!
If you are like me, you still haven’t made plans yet tonight. Only difference is that I have already made my plans.
Today is officially the first official day of Pride in Winnipeg, Manitoba. In conjunction, REEL Pride is celebrating by hosting the 2015 Best International LGBTTQ* Commercials! They promise that this program will “make you laugh, make you think and maybe pull at your heart strings.”
Tickets are available at the door for $10. There are two shows starting at 7pm or 9pm. The event takes place at the Bandwidth Theatre located at 585 Ellice Avenue (across from the West End Cultural Centre).
You can still reserve your tickets online at http://www.reelpride.org/tickets.
I can’t wait to see you there!
Recently, I had the chance to go out with a few friends for drinks. In the process of joking around, one of my friends called me “such a fag.” It wasn’t meant as an attack or to be hurtful, nor did I interpret it that way. However, upon reflecting on the conversation I wonder if I should have been offended by this comment. I came across this video on Upworthy from Ash Beckham and I want to share it with you.
The message challenged me and I wonder how that comment may have made other people sitting on the patio near us feel. Would I have been offended if one of them called me a “fag?” I think that it is an important reminder for us that the words we use are very powerful tools. That we can “legislate acceptance, but we can’t legislate tolerance” and that we should never use the word “gay” in a way that means “less than.”
This message is even more important now as we see the hate being spread by the officials in Russia in the upcoming games as well as governments and people around the world. Let me know your thoughts in the comments below.
This past weekend, a Winnipeg man named Chris had his house tagged with homophobic slurs overnight. At such an important time in the fight for equality, it hurts to see that someone would do something as despicable as this attack.
CTV News Winnipeg covered the story of this attack here.
Yesterday, a group of AMAZING people volunteered their time to go and “Paint over the hate” by re-painting Chris’s house. These people are truly amazing and I think that we need to recognize them for being angels in the fight for equality. Let’s take a moment to thank each and every one of them. You are all amazing and thank you for taking time out of your day to help out another person in such a generous way. It makes me proud to say that I am from Winnipeg!
People like these volunteers are what make Winnipeg “One Great City.”
Check the video of their efforts: