Pushing Through Hard Days

Work days are the hardest days to blog. I feel like nothing happens that is worth blogging about. Someone yelled at me within the first 5 minutes of my shift today though, and I dragged the frustration of that around the city with me. It made for a super long day. Then I came home and had dinner and got ready for bed. I did however have a really important moment of self-discovery while recording today’s vlog.

Battle It Out

I really wish that I was able to enjoy days off, but it always seems like there are so many tasks around the house that I need to get through. Today was no exception. I am suffering the consequences of having moved everything into the dining room and trying to get everything reorganized. My evening was wonderful as I had the opportunity to attend RuPaul’s Battle of the season with Mike T and then headed over to Club 200 for a drink afterwards. There was an interesting emotional moment that happened though when I realized that I was in a gay bar which I have always felt was my safe space.

Inspiration in my Inbox

I was recently cleaning up my email inbox and found an inspirational message that a very good friend sent to me.  It is so easy to get caught up in life, tasks, responsibilities, and distractions.  It was written by Regina Brett.  I have selected a few of my favourite quotes to share with you, but make sure you click here to read the full list.

 

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.

13. Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.

18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

32. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

36. Growing old beats the alternative – dying young.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.

46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

48. If you don’t ask, you don’t get.

You’re such a Fag

Recently, I had the chance to go out with a few friends for drinks. In the process of joking around, one of my friends called me “such a fag.” It wasn’t meant as an attack or to be hurtful, nor did I interpret it that way.  However, upon reflecting on the conversation I wonder if I should have been offended by this comment.  I came across this video on Upworthy from Ash Beckham and I want to share it with you.

The message challenged me and I wonder how that comment may have made other people sitting on the patio near us feel. Would I have been offended if one of them called me a “fag?”  I think that it is an important reminder for us that the words we use are very powerful tools.  That we can “legislate acceptance, but we can’t legislate tolerance” and that we should never use the word “gay” in a way that means “less than.”

This message is even more important now as we see the hate being spread by the officials in Russia in the upcoming games as well as governments and people around the world.  Let me know your thoughts in the comments below.

All the little things

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Anyone that lives in Canada can surely come up with at least 20 jokes about Winnipeg in under 10 seconds, and most young people here have dreams of making their expedient escape.

I am quickly approaching the 1 year mark of having made my exit, which was less of an escape and more of a pursuit of my career. I have spend the last week in Winnipeg enjoying the blistering summer sun, and it has reminded me why all these people suffer through the 9 months of freezing winter. This city has phenomenal summers.

So much has changed here as well in regards to how many construction projects have been started here, and for once it isn’t all on the roads. The old gravel parking lots are rapidly disappearing behind construction fences as future buildings begin to take shape in their place.

I never stopped loving this city when I left, but that love has been renewed with this visit. It will be hard to say goodbye tonight as I make my way back to Calgary, but I know I will be back here soon and look forward to seeing the progress this city has made.

I’m so BORED!

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I catch myself telling friends that I am bored more often than I care to admit. I have a large list of things that I would love to accomplish or tackle, but finding motivation to accomplish them is often more of a challenge than it should be.

If you Google the word “Bored”, you will find the following definition:

  • Feeling weary because one is unoccupied or lacks interest in one’s current activity

It is not very often that I find myself unoccupied, so that clearly isn’t a problem for me. I find more often that I am lacking interest in the activity that I am doing.

My biggest concern with using the statement “I’m so bored” is that it makes me look ungrateful for the many blessings in my life. I can think of many more tasks that would be much less desirable than whatever “boring” task I am doing, whatever the reason for needing to accomplish the given task is be it for work, or as a step in accomplishing a larger goal for example.

The second challenge with using this statement is that I am often using it when I really mean that I am unmotivated to accomplish another task. Admitting boredom is often easier than admitting that I have the undesirable quality of laziness or a lack of motivation to accomplish a task. Ultimately, I am using it as a mask to cover up my weakness.

Do you have a word that you use as a mask do cover up something else that you actually mean because it sounds better, but actually doesn’t match the definition of the word that you are using?

Passing the Mile Marker

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I am very excited to celebrate my 27th anniversary this Saturday. However, I want to share a moment with you as I reflect on the things that have happened to me over the past year.

This has been a major year of change and growth for me, and though it hurt at the time, I am so incredibly appreciative of everything that has happened. I have used these life lessons to become a much better and stronger person.

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In August, I moved away from my home, my family and my friends. With my job, I am able to return to visit Winnipeg often. However, with each passing day, Calgary feels more like home as I create new friendships in this wonderful new city.

I also have had the opportunity to return to the aviation industry as a flight dispatcher. I have had the chance to follow many different career paths during my short existence, but the fast pace and different challenges presented by my current position will provide me with a multitude of opportunities to learn more about this industry. I am working for a great company that encourages growth and supports their people. I look forward to employing my skills and abilities with this company for many years to come.

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The most important lesson that I have learned this year is the importance of friendship. I am blessed with such wonderful people in my life, some who are still a part of it, as well as the lessons taught by the friendships I have lost. I am eternally grateful for the ways that people have impacted my life and helped to support and inspire me to become the person that I am today.

The upcoming year is filled with opportunity. I am still in the process of discovering who I am, who I want to be, and how I am going to get there. This journey will have many highs and many lows, but nothing that I can’t overcome. I am excited to share this journey with you all.

I look forward to this being the first of many celebrations, holidays, activities, and events that we get to experience together.