Pushing Through Hard Days

Work days are the hardest days to blog. I feel like nothing happens that is worth blogging about. Someone yelled at me within the first 5 minutes of my shift today though, and I dragged the frustration of that around the city with me. It made for a super long day. Then I came home and had dinner and got ready for bed. I did however have a really important moment of self-discovery while recording today’s vlog.

Getting Back To Normal… Whatever That Is!

  

Look at me go… writing a blog again!

I meant to sit down and write a blog yesterday, but I ended up sleeping most of the day so that clearly didn’t happen.  I figured I should pick a day of the week for updates and somehow that ended up being Wednesday because it is the only day of the week that starts with a “W” and I’m writing.  However, it is Thursday and I don’t really feel like Googling “T” words that mean something about writing… so we are just going to go with it.

This week has been amazing.  I am super thankful for all the nice things that people have said and done over the last little while to help me process all the craziness that happened. I am feeling incredible and am ready to resume my version of “normal” even though I feel like nothing in my life is really that “normal.”  I think I live on a pretty awesome version of “special” where I find myself presented with opportunities that are pretty out of the ordinary.

I am going to be resuming full work days starting tomorrow which I am really looking forward to.  I have missed my routine of knowing what shifts I am working and what time I have to get out of bed.  It will also be nice to see some of my regular passengers again that always have something nice to say to start the day.

I am going to cut this blog a little bit short today because I am going to be late for an appointment if I don’t get myself out the door like 3 minutes ago.  I hope you all have an amazing week and I will chat again soon! Until next time, Be Super!

-M

Learning to Walk Again

 
Well hello again blog.  How have you been?  It seems like it has been months since I have sat down in-front of my computer to write you a story… Oh wait it actually has been!There is a a reason for it, but I can’t share all the details.  2016 has hit me like a freight train, like a really big freight train, the kind that has like six locomotives at the front followed by like 1,000 big heavy box cars… That kind of freight train.  There have been a series of really unpleasant life events that have all occurred in rapid succession which have left me feeling rather overwhelmed.  It became way too much to deal with all at once.  So I have slammed on the brakes and I am slowly getting through it all day-by-day.

The piece that I am ready to get through today is blogging.  I haven’t made a vlog on YouTube in quite some time either.  I find that it takes far more effort to record a video clip, edit the clips together, and publish a video; but this post isn’t about vlogging.  My small step today has been to sit down and write which feels really, really good.

I am so thankful for all the amazing friends that I have in my life that have been here to support me through this rough patch.  Sometimes just having a friend remind me to relax and that tomorrow is a brand new day was all I needed.

Aside from all the events that have happened so far this year, another struggle I have is remembering to write my ideas and stories down.  As you know, I am a bus driver which gives me a lot of time to think.  I get the opportunity to travel around Winnipeg and see a lot of things that would make for killer blog material, but I can’t just pull over and start writing on the side of the road.  Could you imagine…

“Ummmm… Driver… Why are we stopped?”

“Hold on… I’m blogging…”

It is even a challenge to note down the ideas on a piece of paper while I’m at work since I am required to focus on safely maneuvering my gigantic metal bus down the extremely narrow streets while avoiding the limitless numbers of hazards.  By the time I get to the next place to stop and would have had the chance to note down my blog idea, I have had my attention pulled away to avoid 160 pot holes, 239 cars, and answer 172 questions about how to get downtown.

Don’t interpret that as me complaining, safe driving and customer service are my priorities while I am at work.  Maybe I am just getting old and need to play more brain games to improve my memory skills in order to remember what it was I wanted to write about again today.

What was I talking about again?  Oh ya… Blogging…

I am really thankful that life has appeared to take a break from building hurdles in my path.  It has certainly provided me an opportunity to do a lot of reflection on what my goals and priorities are going to be for 2016.  That being said, I am really excited to be writing again today and I hope that this inspiration will continue and I can continue to create new stories and adventures to share with you.

I hope you are all having an amazing Wednesday!  Until next time…

-M

Confusion About the Future

 What a grey rainy day off today has been. I have been pretending to be an adult and getting caught up on all my chores around the house.  I decided that it was time to take a break and sit down infant of my computer to write a blog post. I have been reflecting quite heavily about my previous post regarding the renewal of my blog site. It has been a challenging decision and I certainly am no where near coming to a conclusion about what it is that I am going to do with my blog.

Today I have actually sat down at the computer as opposed to writing on my cell phone which has been the traditional location for most of the blogs that I have written. Some of the things that I prefer about sitting down at the computer is that I can type on a traditional keyboard which allows me to type much faster. It allows me to write almost as fast as I can think as compared to the tiny keyboard on my cell phone. The downside to this is that my laptop is much less portable and I am unable to write a certain kind of blog post that can only be written out and about to share the emotion and experience I am feeling at the exact moment that I chose to blog. However, going forward I would certainly like to spend a bit more time writing at my desk rather than always blogging from a mobile platform.

I have been off work for the last two days following a seven day stretch of days worked in a row. It has been really nice having two full days to enjoy my life and refocusing myself on my goals and priorities post volunteering for Reel Pride 2015. I have organized the papers on about half of my desk (because I keep everything in a well organized and catalogued manner so that I can actually find things that I am looking for in the future and the mess that has been my desk for the past two months has been driving me absolutely insane). I have also been catching up on three weeks of untouched dirty laundry which is essentially done with the exception of a few items that need to be folded and put away because matching socks is absolutely the worst chore in the world.

I am looking forward to finishing all my chores today so that I will have a clean and well organized workspace to refocus myself towards the pursuit of my goals and dreams as we charge rapidly towards 2016. I am pretty sure that I am going to renew my blog as well as to continue to grow my youtube channel, but I want to make sure that it feels right before I commit to another year of my site as there are still a few days left to make the official decision.

I also want to quickly say thank you to everyone that has been a part of the making of the success of both my blog and vlog. This past summer my blog passed 5,000 views and my youtube channel is about to cross the same threshold. It is an indescribable feeling knowing that so many people have taken time from their life to read or watch the content that I have created and I am incredibly thankful for the opportunity to share my views and experiences of the world with you, so thank you. Below is today’s vlog as well for you that are interested in checking out my youtube channel.

Have a super day and I’ll talk to you tomorrow!

To Blog, To Vlog, or Both?

  

It has been two years since I first started blogging. The renewal notice for my website has once again arrived via email. The predicament that I am faced with is whether or not to renew. 

As you all know, I have been incredibly unfaithful to vlogging and blogging over the past year. Part of that had been to life circumstances, but most of it has been due to a lack of confidence in my creativity. That confidence is slowly coming back, but I am still very shaky about actually sharing the stories I have made. 

I have been finding more success with vlogging and have been posting videos to my YouTube channel more frequently than I have been sharing written stories. Part of the success with that is recording a 30 second video clip only takes a 30 second commitment from my day. However, making the time to write is a much more demanding task as it has taken me 5 minutes to get this far in this post, although is has probably only taken you about 30 seconds to read. 

I have also recently changed my focus away from trying to create the type of stories I think people want to read and have turned it more onto sharing the types of stories I want to share. I have been enjoying creating and sharing my work with you all much more since I adjusted my priority. 

I have one more week to decide what the future of supermattymatt.com is, but I’m not sure if this will be the end of my story telling as you know it. I am going to be contemplating this decision very throughly over the next few days. Stay tuned. 

Time to Change the Calendar Already?!?!?

  

Good Morning Friends,

Did I miss September? I only just changed my calendar from August to September last week (yeah, I missed the boat on that one a little bit). I totally didn’t realize it was October 1 today until the first passenger showed me their brand new shiny monthly bus pass. I almost corrected them before I realized that we are beginning another new month. 
Yesterday, I had the opportunity to watch the first film of the 2015 Reel Pride Pre-Festival Program at the University of Manitoba. The film was called A Gay Girl In Damasus: The Amina Profile.  It was an extremely interesting film portraying the online lesbian relationship between a woman in Montreal, Canada and a woman, Amina, who claimed to be from Damasus, Syria. Their relationship helped to fuel Amina’s blog as she shared stories about what it was like to be a lesbian in Syria during the government crackdowns. The story takes a strange twist when Amina is suspected of having been detained by Syria forces, but no one can find any record of her arrests. 

I’m not going to tell you anything more because the film is an absolute must see. The film was followed by a discussion led by Drs. Janice Dodds and Liz Millward. It was very interesting listening to all the different perspectives and interpretations of the film. I am so glad that I had the opportunity to participate in this event and it helped to remind me why I’m a part of Reel Pride’s board of directors. 

I just got home from work and finished setting up my new bed frame that Shannon, my roommate, rescued from her brother’s house that he was planning on throwing away. I am so happy with it and so thankful that Shannon is such an amazing friend!

I have to get ready to get back to work shortly for my second piece of work. I am really looking forward to seeing what October has in store. I also can’t wait for my Mom to finally start planning Thanksgiving Dinner because I am really looking forward to stuffing my face with her yummy home cooked food. 

On that note, I’m going to find breakfast. Have an awesome Thursday!  

-SuperMattyMatt

Time for a Fall Update!

  
Well good morning friends,

Life has been crazy busy lately, but things are still amazing in my world. Any free time that I have had in my life has been recently dedicated to the preparation of the 2015 Reel Pride Film Festival. 

Reel Pride announced our full festival lineup on September 18 and our festival programs will begin to appear around Winnipeg later this week. This year I helped to build the online program as well as bring our ticketing system online. It took a lot of effort to setup initially, but will make things so much better and faster throughout the festival. All the details are available at http://www.reelpride.org. 

I have finally had the opportunity to stop and breathe now that the program has been launched. I have invested in a new cellphone  which has helped curb much of my technological frustrations. I was experiencing  insufficient memory issues on my old phone resulting in it not doing anything helpful.  I am really satisfied with my decision to upgrade. I am much happier and feeling much more productive. 

I am on day 6 of 7 of work. I am looking forward to having Tuesday & Wednesday off more than you can imagine.  I need to do laundry as I have officially run out of clean socks this morning. Wednesday is also the first film for Reel Pride at the University of Manitoba. The film A Gay Girl in Damascus: The Amina Project, directed by Sophie Deraspe, is a free event in partnership with the Women’s and Gender Study department.

Otherwise, things are great in my world. This is one of my two favourite seasons. I love how colourful autumn is. It is beautiful driving around the city surrounded by the multicoloured canopies provided by the rows and rows of trees that line our streets!  

I hope you have an amazing Sunday!  Don’t forget to be a superhero to someone today!